tg.wizardfirstrule- 第74节

　
　In　the　fog　of　agony；　a　realization　came　to　him；　he　recognized　the　pain。　It　was　the　same　as　the　anger。　It　coursed　through　him　the　same　way　as　the　anger　from　the　sword。　He　knew　that　feeling　well　enough；　it　was　the　magic。　Once　he　recognized　it　as　the　magic；　he　urgently　tried　to　take　control　of　it；　the　way　he　had　learned　to　control　the　anger。　This　time　he　knew　he　must　win　control；　or　die。　He　reasoned　with　himself；　came　to　prehend　the　need　of　what　he　had　done；　horrible　as　it　was。　The　man　had　sentenced　himself　to　death　with　his　own　intent　to　kill。
　
　At　last；　he　was　able　to　put　away　the　pain；　as　he　had　learned　to　put　away　the　anger。　Relief　washed　over　him。　He　had　won　both　battles。　The　pain　lifted；　and　was　gone。
　
　Lying　on　his　back；　panting；　he　felt　the　world　e　rushing　back。　Kahlan　was　kneeling　beside　him；　wiping　a　cool；　damp　cloth　over　his　face。　Wiping　off　the　blood。　Her　brow　was　wrinkled；　tears　ran　down　her　cheeks。　Splatters　of　the　man's　blood　lay　in　long　streaks　across　her　face。
　
　Richard　rose　to　his　knees　and　took　the　cloth　from　her　hand；　to　wipe　her　face；　as　if　to　wipe　from　her　mind　the　sight　of　what　he　had　done。　Before　he　could；　she　threw　her　arms　around　him；　embracing　him　tighter　than　he　would　have　thought　her　capable　of。　He　hugged　her　back　just　as　tight　while　her　fingers　went　up　the　back　of　his　neck；　into　his　hair；　holding　his　head　to　her　as　she　cried。　He　couldn't　believe　how　good　it　felt　to　have　her　back。　He　didn't　want　to　let　her　go；　ever。
　
　〃I'm　so　very　sorry；　Richard；〃　she　sobbed。
　
　〃For　what？〃
　
　〃That　you　had　to　kill　a　man　on　my　account。〃
　
　He　rocked　her　gently；　stroking　her　hair。　〃It's　all　right。〃
　
　She　shook　her　head　against　his　neck。　〃I　knew　how　much　the　magic　would　hurt　you。　That's　why　I　didn't　want　you　to　have　to　fight　the　men　back　at　the　inn。〃
　
　〃Zedd　told　me　the　anger　would　protect　me　from　the　pain。　Kahlan；　I　don't　understand；　There　is　absolutely　no　way　I　could　have　been　any　more　angry。〃
　
　She　separated　from　him；　her　hands　on　leis　arms；　squeezing　as　if　to　keep　testing　that　he　was　real。　〃Zedd　told　me　to　watch　out　for　you；　if　you　used　the　sword　to　kill　a　man。　He　told　me　that　what　he　said　about　the　anger　protecting　you　was　true；　but　he　said　the　first　time　was　different；　that　the　magic　tested；　took　a　measure　of　the　Seeker　with　the　pain；　and　nothing　could　protect　you　from　it。　He　said　that　he　couldn't　tell　you　because　if　you　knew；　it　would　make　you　hold　back；　be　more　cautious　in　its　use；　and　that　could　be　disastrous。　He　said　the　magic　has　to　join　to　the　Seeker　with　its　first　ultimate　use；　to　ascertain　his　intent　when　he　kills。〃　She　squeezed　his　arms。　〃He　said　the　magic　could　do　terrible　things　to　you。　It　tests　with　the　pain；　to　see　who　will　be　the　master；　who　the　ruled。〃
　
　Richard　sat　back　on　his　heels；　startled。　Adie　had　said　the　wizard　kept　a　secret　from　him。　This　must　have　been　it。　Zedd　must　have　been　very　worried；　and　afraid　for　him。　Richard　felt　sorry　for　his　old　friend。
　
　For　the　first　time；　Richard　truly　understood　the　meaning　of　being　Seeker；　in　a　way　no　one　else　but　a　Seeker　could。　Bringer　of　death。　He　understood　it　now。　Understood　the　magic；　how　he　used　it；　how　it　used　him；　how　they　were　now　joined。　For　better　or　worse；　he　would　never　be　the　same　again。　He　had　tasted　fulfillment　of　his　darkest　desire。　It　was　done。　There　was　no　going　back　to　being　as　he　was　before。
　
　Richard　brought　the　cloth　up　and　wiped　the　blood　from　Kahlan's　face。
　
　〃I　understand。　I　know　now　what　he　was　talking　about。　You　were　right　to　not　tell　me。〃　He　touched　the　side　of　her　face；　his　voice　gentle。　〃I　was　so　afraid　you　were　killed。〃
　
　She　put　her　hand　over　his。　〃I　thought　you　were　dead。　One　minute　I　was　holding　your　hand；　and　then　I　realized　I　wasn't。〃　Her　eyes　filled　with　tears　again。　〃I　couldn't　find　you。　I　didn't　know　what　to　do。　The　only　thing　I　could　think　of　was　to　go　get　Zedd；　to　wait　for　him　to　wake；　to　get　him　to　help　me。　I　thought　you　were　lost　to　the　underworld。〃
　
　〃I　thought　that's　what　happened　to　you　too。　I　almost　went　on；　alone。〃　He　grinned。　〃Seems　I　have　to　keep　ing　back　for　you。〃
　
　She　smiled　for　the　first　time　since　he　had　found　her；　then　put　her　arms　around　him　again。　Quickly；　she　pushed　away。
　
　〃Richard；　we　have　to　get　out　of　here。　There　are　beasts　about。　They　will　e　for　his　body；　we　can't　be　here　when　they　do。〃
　
　He　nodded；　turned；　picked　up　his　sword；　and　got　to　his　feet。　He　reached　down　for　her；　to　help　her　up。　She　took　his　hand。
　
　The　magic　ignited　in　a　rage；　warning　its　master。
　
　Startled；　Richard　stared　at　her　in　shock。　Just　as　the　last　time；　when　she　had　touched　his　hand　when　he　held　the　sword；　the　magic　had　e　to　life；　only　this　time　it　was　stronger。　Smiling；
　
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　she　didn't　seem　to　feel　anything。　Richard　forced　the　anger　down。　It　went　with　great　reluctance。
　
　She　hugged　him　once　more；　a　quick　hug　with　her　free　arm。　〃I　still　can't　believe　you　are　alive。　I　was　so　sure　I　had　lost　you。〃
　
　〃How　did　you　get　away　from　the　shadows？'。'
　
　Kahlan　shook　her　head：　〃I　don't　know。　They　were　following　us；　and　when　we　became　separated　and　I　went　back；　I　didn't　see　them　anymore。　Did　you　see　any？〃
　
　Richard　nodded　solemnly。　〃Yes；　I　saw　them。　And　my　father　again。　They　came　for　me；　tried　to　push　me　into　the　boundary。〃
　
　Concern　came　over　Kahlan's　face。　〃Why　just　you？　Why　not　both　of　us？〃
　
　〃I　don't　know。　Last　night　at　the　split　rock；　and　later；　when　they　started　following　us；　it　must　have　been　me　they　were　after；　not　you。　The　bone　protected　you。〃
　
　〃The　last　time　at　the　boundary；　they　came　for　everyone　but　you；〃　she　said。　〃What's　different　this　time？〃
　
　Richard　thought　a　moment。　〃I　don't　know；　but　we　have　to　get　across　the　pass。　We're　too　tired　to　have　to　spend　tonight　fighting　shadows　again。　We　must　get　to　the　Midlands　before　dark。　And　this　time；　I　promise　I　won't　let　go　of　your　hand。〃
　
　Kahlan　smiled　and　squeezed　his　hand。
　
　〃I　won't　let　go　of　yours　either。〃
　
　〃I　ran　back　through　the　Narrows。　It　didn't　take　long　that　way。　You　up　to　that？〃
　
　She　nodded　arid　they　started　running　at　an　easy　pace　he　thought　she　could　keep　up。　As　the　last　time　he　crossed；　no　shadows　followed；　although　several　floated　above　the　path。　And　as　before；　Richard…　went　through　them　sword…first　without　waiting　to　find　out　what　they　would　do。　Kahlan　flinched　at　their　howls。　He　watched　the　tracks　as　he　ran；　pulling　her　through　the　turns；　keeping　her　on　the　trail。
　
　When　they　were　clear　of　the　slide；　and　on　the　forest　path　on　the　other　side　of　the　Narrows；　they　slowed　to　a　fast　walk　to　catch　their　breath。　Drizzle　wet　their　faces　and　hair。　Happiness　over　finding　her　alive　dimmed　his　worry　about　the　difficulties　that　lay　ahead。　They　shared　bread　and　fruit　as　they　kept　moving。　Even　though　his　stomach　was　grumbling　with　hunger；　he　didn't　want　to　stop　for　anything　more　elaborate
　
　Richard　was　still　confused　by　the　reaction　of　the　magic　when　Kahlan　had　taken　his　hand。　Was　it　something　the　magic　felt　in　her；　or　was　the　magic　reacting　to　something　in　his　own　mind？　Was　it　because　he　was　afraid　of　her　secret？　Or　was　it　something　more；　something　the　magic　itself　felt　in　her？　He　wished　Zedd　was　around；　so　he　could　ask　him　what　he　thought。　But　then；　Zedd　had　been　there　the　last　time；　and　he　hadn't　asked　him　about　it　then。　Was　he　afraid　of　what　Zedd　might　tell　him？
　
　After　they　had　eaten　a　little　and　the　afternoon　had　worn　on；　they　heard　growls　off　in　the　woods。　Kahlan　said　it　was　the　beasts。　They　decided　to　run　again；　to　get　clear　of　the　pass　as　soon　as　possible。　Richard　was　beyond　being　tired。　He　was　simply　numb　as　they　ran　through　the　thick　wood。　Light　rain　on　the　leaves　washed　out　the　sound　of　their　footfalls。
　
　Before　dark　they　came　to　the　edge　of　along　ridge。　Below；　the　trail　descended　in　a　series　of　switchbacks。　They　stood　at　the　top　of　the　ridge；　in　the　woods；　as　if　at　the　mouth　of　a　cave；　looking　out　over　an　open　grassland　swept　with　rain。
　
　Kahlan　held　herself　erect；　rigid。　〃I　know　this　place；〃　she　whispered。
　
　〃So　what　is　it？〃
　
　〃It　is　called　the　Wilds。　We　are　in　the　Midlands。〃　She　turned　to　him。　〃I　am　returned　home。〃
　
　He　lifted　an　eyebrow。　〃The　place　doe