ld them； not awed by the pany； but he added little to Fletcher's account。 He had not been able to see clearly； the darkness was relieved only by a very occasional gun…flash from the city's walls； and much of his account was based on the sounds he had heard as he lay on the glacis lip and listened； not just to the French working parties； but to the British grapeshot smashing through the weeds and rattling on the walls。 Wellington let him finish。 It had been a concise statement。 The General's eyes held Sharpe's。 'One question。' 'Sir？'
'Are the breaches practical？' Wellington's eyes were unreadable； cold like steel。
Sharpe's gaze was as hard； as unyielding。 'Yes。' A murmur round the table。 Wellington leaned back。 Colonel Fletcher's voice rose above the noise。 'With respect； my Lord； I do not think it within Captain； Lieutenant Sharpe's petency to pronounce on a breach。' 'He's been there。' Fletcher muttered something about sending a heathen to Kirk and not making him a Christian。 The quill in his hand bent almost double under the pressure of his fingers； he let it go and the split nib spattered ink across the two bastions。 He thumped the pen down。 'It's too soon。'
Wellington pushed himself away from the table； stood up。 'One day； gentlemen； one day。' He looked round the table。 No one challenged him。 It was too soon； he knew that； but perhaps any day would be too soon to take on this fortress。 Perhaps； as the French claimed； it was impregnable。 'Tomorrow； gentlemen； Sunday the fifth。 We assault Badajoz。'
'Sir！' Sharpe spoke and the General； who had been expecting a protest from the Engineers； turned towards him。 'Sharpe？'
'One question； sir？' Sharpe could hardly believe that he was talking； let alone in such challenging tones and in such a pany； but he might not get this chance again。
'Go on。'
'The Hope； sir。 I would like to lead the Hope。'
Wellington's eyes were cold and glinting。 'Why？'
What was he to say？ That it was a test？ The supreme test； perhaps； of a soldier？ Or that he wanted his revenge on a system； a system represented by a pox…scarred clerk in Whitehall； that had made him superfluous； unwanted？ He suddenly thought of Antonia； his daughter； of Teresa。 He thought that he might never see Madrid； Paris； or know how the war would end； but the die was cast。 He shrugged； looking for words； unsettled by the impenetrable eyes。 'I don't know； sir。 I want it。' He sounded to himself like a petulant child。 He could sense the eyes of the senior officers on him； curious eyes； looking at his shabby uniform； his old； irregular sword； and he damned them to hell。 Their pride was buttressed by money。
Wellington's voice was softer。 'You want your pany？'
'Yes； sir。' He felt a fool； a shabby fool in a glittering setting； and he knew that all of them could see his broken pride。
Wellington nodded towards Colonel Fletcher。 'The Colonel will tell you； Sharpe； and pray God he is wrong； that on Monday morning we'll be handing Captaincies out with the rations。'
Fletcher said nothing。 The room was silent； embarrassed by Sharpe's request。 The Rifleman felt as if all his life； all that had been and all that might never be； was balanced on this silence。
Wellington smiled。 'God knows； Sharpe； that I think you are a rogue。 A useful rogue and； thankfully； a rogue who is on my side。' He smiled again and Sharpe knew that the General was remembering the gory Indian bayonets reaching for him at Assaye； but that debt had long been paid。 Wellington picked up his papers。 'I don't think I want you dead； Sharpe。 The army would be； somehow； less interesting。 Your request is denied。' He left the room。
Sharpe stood there； quite still as the other officers filed out； and he thought how； in these past few miserable weeks； he had fixed all his hopes and ambitions on that one thing。 His Captaincy； his pany； their jackets； rifles and trust； even； because he did not seriously believe he would be killed； the chance to reach the house with the two orange trees before the maniacal horde； before Hakeswill； and all had been fixed on the Hope； the Forlorn Hope。 And it had been denied。
He should have felt disappointment； anger even； at the refusal； but he could not。 Instead； flooding through him like pure water scouring a foul ditch； was relief； utter； blissful relief。 He was ashamed of the feeling。
Hogan came back into the room and smiled up at him。 'There。 You've asked； you got the right answer。'
'No。' Sharpe's face was stubborn。 'There's still time； sir； still time。' He did not know what he meant； or why he said it； except that on the morrow； in the first darkness of evening； he would somehow face that test。 And win。
CHAPTER 22
Sergeant Obadiah Hakeswill was feeling contented。 He sat by himself； church parade done； and stared into the depths of his shako。 He spoke to his hat。 'Tonight； it is； tonight。 I'll be a good boy； I won't let you down。' He cackled； showing his few rotting teeth； and looked round the pany。 They were watching him； he knew； but would take care not to catch his eye。 He looked back into the greasy depths of the hat。 'Scared； they are； of me。 Oh yes。 Scared of me。 Be more scared tonight。 A lot of them will die tonight。' He cackled again and raised his eyes fast so that he might catch a man staring at him。 They were all studiously avoiding his eyes。 'You'll die tonight！ Like little bloody pigs under the pole…axe！'
He would not die。 He knew it； despite what Sharpe had said。 He looked back into the shako。 'Bloody Sharpe！ He's scared of me。 He ran away！ He can't kill me。 No one can kill me！' He almost shouted the last words。 They were true。 He had been touched by death and he had survived。 He reached up and scratched the livid； red scar。 He had hung for an hour on the gallows； a scrap of a boy； and no one had pulled his feet so that his neck would snap。 He did not remember much of the experience； the crowds； the other prisoners who had joked with him； but he would always be grateful to the sadistic bastard who had hung them the slow way； without a drop； so that the crowd would have a spectacle to watch。 They had cheered every spasmodic jerk and useless struggle until the executioner's assistants； grinning like actors who are pleasing their audience； came to hold the dangling ankles。 They had looked at the crowd； asking their permission to pull； and teased the prisoners。 They had not bothered with the twelve…year…old Obadiah Hakeswill。 He was cunning then as now and had hung still； even as the pain drifted him in and out of consciousness； so the crowd thought he was already dead。 He had not known why he clung so tenaciously to life； it would have been faster and far less painful to be ankle…tugged to death； but then the rain had e。 The clouds had split apart in a downpour that cleared the streets in minutes and no one could be bothered with the last small body。 His uncle； furtive and frightened； had cut him down and hurried the limp body into an alleyway。 He had slapped Obadiah's face。 'Listen； you bastard！ Can you hear me？'
Obadiah must have said something； or moaned； because he remembered his uncle's face； peering close。 'You're alive。 Understand？ Little bastard！ I don't know why I bothered； except your mother wanted me to。 Can you hear me？' 'Yes。' His face was twitching and he could not stop it。 'You're to bugger off； understand？ Bugger off。 You can't go home； they'll get you again； you hear me？'
He had heard； and understood； and buggered off； and never saw his family again。 Not that he missed them much。 He had found the army； like so many hopeless men； and it had served him well。 And he could not die； he had known it since he was alone in the alleyway； had tested it in battle； and he knew that he had cheated death。
He unsheathed his bayonet and wondered； for a second； whether to give it to one of the Privates to sharpen。 He would like to humiliate the big Irish bastard； but on the other hand he always liked to do the job himself when there was killing ahead。 The assault would happen today； everyone knew it； though no announcement had been made； and there would be killing enough for everyone。 He looked