g； anyway？〃
She shook her head。 〃I don't think I want to say； just now。 I'll tell you someday。 It's nothing you'll dislike； I don't believe。〃
He accepted that with a little hopeful nod； and went on。 〃Your ship…〃
She frowned uneasily。 〃You won't be getting into any trouble over my ship getting away； will you？〃
〃It was just the situation we were on our way out here to prevent。 The fact that I was unconscious at the time should be a mitigating factor。 Balancing that are the views I aired at the Emperor's council。 There's bound to be suspicion I let it escape on purpose； to sabotage an adventure I deeply disapprove。〃
〃Another demotion？〃
He laughed。 〃I was the youngest admiral in the history of our fleet…I might end up the oldest ensign； too。 But no；〃 he sobered。 〃There will almost certainly be a charge of treason laid； by the war party in the Ministries。 Until that's settled； one way or another；〃 he met her eyes； 〃it may be difficult to settle any personal affairs either。〃
〃Is treason a capital crime on Barrayar？〃 she asked； morbidly curious。
〃Oh； yes。 Public exposure and death by starvation。〃 He raised a quizzical eyebrow at her appalled look。 〃If it's any consolation； high…born traitors always seem to be smuggled some neat means to private suicide； before the event。 It saves stirring up any unnecessary public sympathy。 I think I should not give them the satisfaction； though。 Let it be public； and messy； and tedious； and embarrassing as all hell。〃 He looked alarmingly fey。
〃Would you sabotage the invasion； if you could？〃
He shook his head； eyes going distant。 〃No。 I am a man under authority。 That's what the syllable in front of my name means。 While the question is still being debated； I'll continue to argue my case。 But if the Emperor puts his word to the order； I'll go without question。 The alternative is civil chaos； and we've had enough of that。〃
〃What's different about this invasion？ You must have favored Komarr； or they wouldn't have put you in charge of it。〃
〃Komarr was a unique opportunity； almost a textbook case。 When I was designing the strategy for its conquest； I made maximum use of those chances。〃 He ticked off the points on his thick fingers。 〃A small population； all concentrated in climate…controlled cities。 No place for guerillas to fall back and regroup。 No allies…we weren't the only ones whose trade was being strangled by their greedy tariffs。 All I had to do was let it leak out that we were going to drop their twenty…five percent cut of everything that passed through their nexus points to fifteen； and the neighbors that should have supported them fell into our pockets。 No heavy industry。 Fat and lazy from living off unearned ine…they didn't even want to do their own fighting； until those scraggly mercenaries they'd hired found out what they were up against； and turned tail。 If I'd had a free hand； and a little more time； I think it could have been taken without a shot being fired。 A perfect war； it should have been； if the Council of Ministers hadn't been so impatient。〃 Remembered frustrations played themselves out before his eyes； and he frowned into the past。 〃This other plan…well； I think you'll understand if I tell you it's Escobar。〃
Cordelia sat up； shocked。 〃You found a jump through here to Escobar？〃 No wonder； then； the Barrayarans had not announced their discovery of this place。 Of all the possibilities she had revolved in her mind； that was the last。 Escobar was one of the major planetary hubs in the network of wormhole exits that strung scattered humanity together。 Large； old； rich； temperate； it counted among its many neighbors Beta Colony itself。 〃They're out of their minds！〃
〃Do you know； that's almost exactly what I said； before the Minister of the West started shouting； and Count Vortala threatened…well； became very rude to him。 Vortala can be more obnoxious without actually swearing than any man I know。〃
〃Beta Colony would be drawn in for sure。 Why； half our interstellar trade passes through Escobar。 And Tau Ceti Five。 And Jackson's Whole。〃
〃At the very least； I should think；〃 Vorkosigan nodded agreement。 〃The idea was to make it a quick operation； and present the potential allies with a fait acpli。 Being intimately familiar with everything that went wrong with my 'perfect' plan for Komarr； I told them they were dreaming； or words to that effect。〃 He shook his head。 〃I wish I'd kept my temper better。 I could still be back there； arguing against it。 Instead； for all I know； the fleet is being readied even now。 And the further preparations go； the harder they will be to stop。〃 He sighed。
〃War；〃 Cordelia mused； immensely disturbed。 〃You realize； if your fleet goes…if Barrayar goes to war with Escobar…they'll be wanting navigators at home。 Even if Beta Colony doesn't get directly involved in the fight； we're sure to be selling them weapons； technical assistance； shiploads of supplies…〃
Vorkosigan started to speak； then stopped himself。 〃I suppose you would；〃 he said bleakly。 〃And we would be trying to blockade you。〃
She could feel the blood beating in her ears in the silence that followed。 The little noises and vibrations of Vorkosigan's ship still drifted through the walls； Bothari stirred in the corridor； and footsteps passed by。
She shook her head。 〃I'm going to have to think about this。 It's not as easy as it looked； at first。〃
〃No； it's not。〃 He turned his hand palm…outward； a gesture of pletion； and rose stiffly； his leg still bothering him。 〃That's all I wanted to say。 You need not say anything。〃
She nodded； grateful for the release； and he withdrew； collecting Bothari and shutting the door firmly behind him。 She sighed distress and deep uncertainty； and lay back staring at the ceiling until Yeoman Nilesa brought dinner。
CHAPTER SIX
Next morning； ship time； she remained quietly in her cabin reading。 She wanted time to assimilate yesterday's conversation before she saw Vorkosigan again。 She was as unsettled as if all her star maps had been randomized； leaving her lost； but at least knowing she was lost。 A step backwards toward truth； she supposed； better than mistaken certainties。 She hungered forlornly for certainties； even as they receded beyond reach。
The ship's library offered a wide range of Barrayaran material。 A gentleman named Abell had produced a turgid general history； full of names； dates； and detailed descriptions of forgotten battles all of whose participants were irrelevantly dead by now。 A scholar named Aczith had done better； with a vivid biography of Emperor Dorca Vorbarra the Just； the ambiguous figure whom Cordelia calculated was Vorkosigan's great…grandfather； and whose reign had straddled the end of the Time of Isolation。 Deeply involved in the multitude of personalities and convoluted politics of his day； she did not even look up at the knock on her door； but called； 〃Enter。〃
A pair of soldiers wearing green…and…grey planetside camouflage fatigues fell through the door and shut it hastily behind them。 What a ratty…looking pair； she thought； finally； a Barrayaran soldier shorter than Vorkosigan。 It was only on the third thought that she recognized them； as from the corridor outside； muffled by the door； an alarm klaxon began to hoot rhythmically。 Looks like I'm not going to make it to the B's。。。
〃Captain！〃 cried Lieutenant Stuben。 〃Are you all right？〃
All the crushing weight of old responsibility descended on her at the sight of his face。 His shoulder…length brown hair had been sacrificed to an imitation Barrayaran military burr that looked as though it had been grazed over by some herbivore； and his head seemed small； naked； and strange without it。 Lieutenant Lai； beside him； slight and thin with a scholarly stoop； made an even less likely looking warrior； the too…large uniform he wore folded up at the wrists and ankles； with one ankle ing unfolded and getting under the heel of his boot。
She opened her mouth once to speak； closed it； then finally ripped out； 〃Why aren't you on your way home？ I gave you an order； Lieutenant！〃
Stuben； anticipating a warmer reception； was momentarily nonplussed。 〃We took a vote；〃 he said simply； as though it explained everything。
Cordelia shook her head he